the night sky has got so much more clear now. :) i walk home and i see all this little white lights blinking out from the dark blue sky.so nicee.but then i realise that i have nobody to share it with,and the head drops and i just walk all the way home.i used to tell so many people that there were stars that night,to stand in the middle of nowhere and count.1,2,3,4 stars.yet now,the scales have gone down on the other side,the number of stars have gone up,and the people,decreased.what is it about life,that fulfils something,yet deprives us of yet another thing?you can never have bliss without the crack in the cup.never.then again.who actually wants to live in perpetual happiness?you'll just be one big happy belly and evidently insensitive to the tragedies around you.silly. :)
since you,i've been
so scared of just walking home alone.i see any headlights winking anywhere,and my heart just wants to jump out of my chest.tonight i was
this close to just breaking down and running home.stop haunting me.your presence weighs so heavily on my chest.i'm so afraid of you.yet i don't want to be.your scent lingers and when i smell it,just anybody in the crowd,my muscles tense and i get ready to bolt.this is how you affect me.not in the way that you wanted,but in completely opposite expressions.i'm terrified.
